Full disclosure, this post is going to be a ramble with lots of pictures and gifs!
So, you may have noticed it’s been quite quiet around here lately. Not that I’m worrying about that, it’s life right? But I thought I would do a little catch up on what’s been happening the past few months. To sum it all up in one word?
Yep, that evil monster reared its ugly head. The one that strikes fear into the hearts of students everywhere. The past few months have been a smooshy ball of stress, panic, hope, and then straight back to panic again.
There’s been sleep deprivation from working all day and long into the night to the point where I begun to look seriously disheveled and my eyes became red from staring at computer screens, but I was determined to keep going based on pure will power.
There’s been setbacks, sometimes just when I thought I was taking a step forward I ended up taking three steps back, making things I had been working of for days essentially pointless.
There’s been melancholy where the joy of life was sucked out of everything due to the endless onslaught of work. It got to the point where making dinner or having a shower was the highlight of my day because it didn’t involve staring at a computer…
And then there were those days when I went to visit my supervisor and they would find all sorts problems with my dissertation and I felt like I was about to implode. What’s that world? You want to chuck problems at me? I don’t even care anymore.
BUT, this week I finally handed in my dissertation! I got my 6,000 words bound so that they looked all professional and swanky, trudged up to my university and dropped that nasty thing in the box where it belonged! Good riddance.
I mean, the melodrama and gifs aside, it wasn’t all bad. I feel like I learnt so much during this project. It really challenged me as a student and gave me more insight into how the research world works and it was great to be able to fully immerse myself in a topic I was interested in learning more about. But after a while the constant setbacks and problems (which always induced panic mode) as well as constantly having to slave over the same piece of work did get frustrating, especially as I had so many other assignments alongside it so that in the end I only had one week to fully focus on my dissertation alone.
So, now I only have one assignment and two exams left, isn’t it crazy how time flies?
Somewhere in the middle of that mess I also turned 21. Not the best timing, (especially as I had an essay due a few days after which I hadn’t even had a chance to start) so I just had a few low key celebrations with the people I really cared about. Sometimes spending your birthday with a few people that you’re truly great friends with but haven’t seen in ages is better than any big party would have been. 🙂 I’m still trying to wrap my head around hitting that big landmark number though!
But the most frustrating thing about being a final year student with a dissertation? I HAVEN’T READ ANYTHING IN WEEKS. We’re nearly four months into the year and do you know how many books I’ve read? A grand total of two. I keep staring longingly over at my bookshelf at all the things I’m desperate to read, and every day I tell myself I’ll find some time to read them, and it never happens.
I feel ya Rory.
Currently I’ve slowly been making my way through Allegiant, the final novel in Veronica Roth’s Divergent trilogy and it’s taking me forever, not because I’m not enjoying it, but because I’ve had no time to read it. It seems like every time I pick it up I get called to do something else or remember that I’m supposed to be doing something important/more time sensitive. *Sigh.* It’s weird, I kind of feel like I’m in a reading slump… but how can you be in a reading slump if you’re not reading anything to get in a slump with? I think with all the work I’ve been doing lately, I just need a book that’s really going to grab me to the point where I can’t not read it. I need something that’s going to distract me so much that I no longer have space in my head for thinking about work!!!
On the plus side, I just received an ARC of of Non Pratt’s latest novel, and you guys know how much I loved her first book Trouble! So I’m thinking this might be exactly what I need. 🙂
So, that’s my past few months in a ramble-y nutshell! Anything new with you guys? Taken on any new projects that have caused you to burn out? Read any great books that might blast away my reading slump? (Bonus points if you can come up with one I already own but haven’t read). Let me know in the comments! 🙂